Is this anybody else?
Over the last 2 years or so, I feel like I’ve lost myself a little bit. Oh, I’m still ME, but this current version of ME is… Not as happy. Not as focused. Not as passionate. Not as gracious.
There’s no question that Covid-19 has changed our world as we all huddled into corners to save ourselves. But there’s also no question that in that same span of 2 years, WE ourselves have significantly changed.
I didn’t quite realize it at first. I mistook my struggles for malaise or “the blahs”. I lived out my “Gray-ish World” where food didn’t taste quite as tasty. Where thrills weren’t quite as thrilling. And vanilla tasted like. Well, Vanilla… In addition, I rarely dressed up in my finer clothes. What reason was there for me to do that??? And to add further insult, I had picked up the dreaded "Quarantine 15” pounds that so many of us did during Covid. To put it simply, the Kyle staring back at me in the mirror, was still ME, but lacking in most every way…
Which brings me to today. Today, I’m on the road to recovery, but also self discovery. I’m actively on the lookout for my next adventure and mountain to climb. The spirit of complacency has worn out its welcome. The Quarantine 15 has now left the building and won’t be returning anytime soon. Going forward, I have a new health and workout plan to keep me on track. I have friends and a good support system that encourages me daily towards brighter days.
Wherever you find yourself, there is never a time that is deemed “too late”. Never a point in your journey that is too far to come back from. The answers to life are always much simpler than we make them out to be. If you don’t like where you’re at, simply “Stop what you’re doing. Breathe. And take stock.” Figure out where you are. Where you want to be. And what matters to you most. Start there. With any luck, some amount of clarity will eventually find you.
If you find yourself feeling “stuck” or don’t recognize the person staring back at you, please feel free to DM me if you would like to chat. I’m here for it. I’m here for anyone looking to make a change and move in a positive direction. Life is better in community y’all. And like Dear Evan Hansen said, “We are not alone…”
